WHAT I TRUST

Today's reading: Psalm 42-44

"I do not trust my bow; I do not count on my sword to save me. It is you who gives us victory over our enemies..." Psalm 44:6-7 NLT

I tend to be a 'do-er', not a 'have it done for me' kind of gal.

I'm resourceful. Determined. Strong willed. Tough as nails. A hard worker.

But a current set of events has left me more dependent upon others than I am comfortable being.

For the little things.

For the things I once considered menial.

For the every day things that I never considered a privilege to be able to do.

I'm realizing I've been trusting in my abilities.

In my well laid plans.

In my, well, in my self.

Good grief, what a set up for a let down!

My skill set is so lacking. My track record is so spotty. My strengths so anemic.

So I'm here face down, slowed down, sat down and brought down to the point I should have been all along--depending completely upon Him.

It is God who wills, who lets, who ordains, who orchestrates, who allows, who brings about, who blesses.

Not me. Not me, at all.