NOT MY DAY
Today's reading: Nehemiah 10-13

"So I confronted the leaders of Judah, Why are you profaning the Sabbath in this evil way?" Nehemiah 13:17 NLT

I'll admit, some mornings it's easier to write what I believe He is speaking to my heart than others. On occasion the words flow quickly, on other occasions, there seems to be a block between what is in my head and heart and what I type. It's usually too personal on those days. It's about things God is chastising me for. It's about things He has found me to be doing and has brought to my attention. It's about sins in my own heart.

On those days, I cannot find anything witty to type. I cannot relay a cute 'from the farm' story. I cannot delve into historical fact or background.

Today is one of those days.

When this verse jumped off the page at me, I was taken aback. I didn't want to open up that can of worms. I didn't want to share my inadequacies and failures. I didn't want you to know about my sin.

You see, I'm guilty of making my Sabbath more about me than Him.

Oh, I'm in His house. I'm about His business. I'm in His Word. I'm serving. I'm respecting His sanctuary. I'm going through the motions of worship, but I am not making it all about Him--I am profaning the Sabbath.

I have, in my heart, been brought up before my Judge, facts have been presented, a verdict of guilty rendered in my case.

So what will I do? How will I change my course?

I don't know. He hasn't revealed all of that to me, yet. He's not talked specifics to my heart yet. He's not pointed out specific avenues of change I need to make. He's not spot-lighted any errors in my way. But I know they are there. In my heart. In the depths of my soul. In the marrow of my worship.

I do know that beginning today, yes it's only Tuesday, I'm preparing my heart and mind for His day--and I won't try to make it about me anymore. Maybe, just maybe, it won't look any different from your perspective--and maybe it will.