INSIDE ME
Today's reading:  Psalm 6-8

"...For you look deep within the mind and heart, O righteous God."  Psalm 7:9 NLT

I don't understand myself some days.

I do some of the most ignorant things for a child of the Most High God.

I doubt when I have no reason to.  I cower when I am told plainly that I needn't.  I hold tightly to things that I'm clearly instructed to let go of.  I waver back and forth when I am told to stand solidly.  I step into sin, sin that God has specifically warned me against.

To think about the fact that God knows the deeper than deep parts of me.  He is aware of what makes me tick.  He knows what drives me, even when I am unaware.

He sees what I really want to do.  He sees the part of me that is hidden away from my closest friends, my family and the world.  He sees, because He has made me, the real me.

He knows my junk.

And He still loves me.

He still sees that I am worth His efforts, His grace and His Son.

He, knowing what He knows about me, still insists that I come near to Him.